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Okay, so I had my final early this week. Totally sucked. It had like 80% of one chapter that was barely discussed in class. I have no idea how I did. But seriously, it doesn't matter. What happened afterwards suck though. Fucking rain, I swear. It started to get dark as I went down the stiars outside on the way to my car. Kind of scary with not too many people around, but it was lit and then further down it just wasn't. I thought I was at the bottome, but apparently I had 3 steps left and ended up twisting my right foot. And I fell on my ass, so I was soaked in the rain >.> I limped to my car and had to endure the stinging every once in a while as I had to DRIVE with that foot.. I kept it elevated and whatnot and it went away. Well, mostly, at least. It still hurts from time to time. I was afraid if I sprained it sicne I have 2 more months without insurance. oy vay.

But I'm alll better now :) the week was very pleasant otherwise. I was constantly busy with this and that at work. Being called last minute to help out at another office. Coordinating with management on staff assignments as we prepare to remodel the office. I'm like #2 to management. It's kind of cool knowing everything that's going on, haha. My co-workers are so nice and positive to be around, ignoring the stupid gossip, but with 98% women in our office, it's inevitable.

iTunes has downloaded. Meh I hate it, but I have to cuz my 8 year old brother got a freakin iPod nano for his birthday today. You know, the one that can take video!! @.@ Like wtf is he supposed to do with it? He requested like 10 songs XD So cute. I love him, he's so damn adorable. And my stepmom and dad are only barely catching on with texts on their phones, so I offered my songs and computer to set up his music and whatnot. So weird that he likes a lot of the stuff I do. All this 80s stuff from Rock Band and Guitar Hero... plus the karaoke games he and I play. hehe, I love my little ones :3 They never cease to make me eternally happy ^_^ and grateful for not being so damn spoiled xP And Chuck E Cheese today was fun... and I realize I shouldn't keep technology from him. Afterall, I had my first website when I was 9 years old. I don't even know if he's THAT computer literate yet, but his school is getting him pretty close. This public school nonsense is so foreign to me. Damn my sheltered, over-paid Catholic schooling.

Last night we watched Snatch. It was good! ... except the part where I tried to watch it with my parents, cause I didn't know what it was about ^^; my mom quite went to bed fairly early because of all the cussing and my dad quite went to bed a bit later after he gave up cause it was too confusing for him, but I did tell them the whole story over breakfast and they enjoyed it with everything censored out lol.

Today we watched Slumdog Millionaire, which my parents both really enjoyed, and my mom expectantly had a hard time with the slum parts in the beginning but I did too. The music for that movie ♥ =~.~=

My dad bought a ps3 ~ youtube *.* unfortunately the videos are pretty blurry when you blow it up full screen. I bought my parents flower since it's a completely non-offensive, almost no buttons game :D my dad beat the first stage though I got it for my mom. ... She said it made her want to garden. Irl. OTL

What are some good, not too difficult games I could get for my dad? I think he'd like sports and action games that aren't overly graphic.

tuesday: friends pyramid-cult-thing graduation.
wednesday: partying til the wee hours of the morning
thursday: partying til the wee hours of the morning
friday: most of evening shopping for stuff with a friend and ended up buying clothes >.< (grr)
tomorrow: laundry and a little room cleaning followed by... you guessed it... partying til the wee hours of the morning....

about sunday im going to be ready to sit down at home by myself and play video games and read without having to worry about much else.

well, too bad i wont be able to do that quite the way i imagine it. ill just have to hope for at the least a drink in my hand and a girl on my arm to pass some of the night in peace instead of in party :)

overall, a good week, just a bit of a strain on the liver and lungs.

time to collapse with double vision. good night.

The kitty I rescued last year in East LA got hit by a car last week and died.

I'm pretty sad, but my sister and her bf are really torn up. My mom's upset too. It was the sweetest cat, part mainecoon, it was the fluffiest cat I've ever held and was the only one of our four cats that didn't have a messed up personality.

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It's been almost exactly one year since I found her and brought her home one-handed in my car.

Within these past few months a lot of things have come my way either smacking me in the face or welcoming with open arms.

It just makes me wonder about a lot of the good ad bad things that come by me and the timing that they've occurred in.

I am very much aware that there are such concepts, like karma, that very much hold some essence of truth in people's lives. Comparatively, the stock market is kind of the same - people's fortunes go up and down. If one were to make an chart of people's fortune it might normally take the shape of a sine wave, or "rolling hills." Now imagine one straight horizontal line directly dissected the hills. Now one has hills and troughs, and the line can be considered the "break even line."



Now try to imagine the time it takes to get from the top of the hill to the bottom of the trough and back to the next top of the hill - one can call it a period of time.

Remember how the "break even line" is where a hill/trough ends and a trough/hill begins? Well imagine applying an evenly distributed amount of time between at each point the "break even line" intersects the sine wave.

Now imagine someone moved that break even line upwards, making the pleasant hills much smaller compared to the now elongated troughs.




This better perceives how things seem to be going for me. I'm sure......


Ah screw it....


My life is a lot like a flat line and it sucks.
Either nothing good or bad happens at once, or all good and bad things happen to me at the same time. Altogether it essentially cancels them out. Quite frankly I feel like the hills are getting smaller, and the troughs are getting larger. When I had a goal in life I never had the means to achieve that goal. Then once I had the means I no longer had the opportunity to achieve my goal.

I think I've lost more than I gained. It doesn't even look like the means justify the ends anymore.

Sometimes I think I'm just kidding myself.

The only thing I don't regret is that at least I went out and tried to do something about my life. Unfortunately, every time - every single goddamn time I've tried - I've ended up dealing shit to someone else in my (half the time) drunken stupidity, straight up shit myself, or a mix of both.


Fuck this shit

Fuck all of this shit.

I lost a lot of motivation for anything.

Know what? I think I'm just a horrible person. Let's just say that's what I see when people come to better know me. Like they think they know me, but only see the good and refuse to see the bad. My guess is that you probably don't really know me. Even if you think it's not really a problem, once you see it then you'd realize just how irrational it is.

DON'T have feelings for my situation because quite frankly I think that just accomplishes three unwanted things:
1) It places an unnecessary sense of self-righteousness into yourself, which you shouldn't because you think your helping someone that doesn't deserve help.
2) It further reminds me of how much of a loser I am.
3) You're probably more than likely wrong, which I will blatantly point out.







The concept of a "nice" person has now taken a negative connotation. Right now I think that being nice is a means of putting on a front as a defensive measure to create a stalemate so that no one ever gets "hurt". Unfortunately, it also prevents anyone from ever truly being happy. Being nice prevents people from ever truly going beyond the "first impression". Appearing happy and gleeful all the time seems to be a forefront to all things "nice and pleasant" most of which is pretty much a lie. Kinda boring huh. I might as well go back to lookin like shit again because then at least I'd be real.

http://news.livejournal.com/120286.html

ren_wren and I totally called it. XD

Vote for Pluto!

http://ocpets.freedomblogging.com/2009/12/09/fashion-throwdown-pepito-vs-pluto/28803

I totally forgot that THIS is my favorite ending of all time:



OTL I mean the ending is just fantastic. XD I sat around jumping up and down to this and dancing along. Well I did that with the majiranger ending too, but this one has a better son and awesome animation. Did I hype you up enough? XD

....

10 days countdown!

So, I'm back from my week long trip to Michigan. It was crazy because I have never been so cold in my life xD 50 is the most I can stand, but I managed to live through it with my many layers. Plus I had my dad's leather jacket. Kind of big, but it worked haha. Makes me want my own. It was in the 30s when I left. And I saw flurries of snow ^_^

Now I have to study even more hardcore. Well.. I guess not as bad since I studied while away, but now I'm compiling my cheat sheet. He allows us one page back and forth, but I just don't know what to expect. The test is from the publisher and is NOT from the professor. Last time he didn't even know what was on it!! >.> annoying

I had to do a buttload of laundry today too. And I am oh so glad that I get tomorrow off!! It's not only my dad's birthday, but I also need to study and gather myself before I can logically take an exam! And now I find that I need a scantron for my test too. haha, oh joy. Maybe I still have one in my car? Meh. Not too big of a deal. Oh, haha, it might be nice to know what my mom did with my keys since she had to use my car while I was away.

Hm... if you guys see lj lifetime account or other special deals come up, let me know onegaishimasu ~ =~.~=

After replying to Val's post I seriously thought... OMG!!! SO MUCH TO GET DONE!! AHHH!!

Here is my List:

Shop for Christmas (now -12/25)

Brother's Graduation (12/18)

My Birthday (12/18)

Birthday Celebration (12/19)

Plan for Anime Los Angeles* (now - 12/31)

Anime Los Angeles (1/08 - 1/10)

Make Cosplay (if at all possible) (now - 1/07)

Ugh.. I'm going to be so broke...


*I'm starting to look at Hotel rates for ALA, I can get a room for $99 a night if anyone is interested at the Marriot. I know some of you live in LA so there really isn't a need for a hotel. It is just one of those things I need to start figuring out. Also, I need to buy my ticket... argh... DX

LOL. I celebrated my birthday on Lelouch's this year (I can't ever forget it since it's two days after from mine. Not because I'm crazy. <_<). I'm still kinda tipsy and hella tired but thank you guys. Totally makes up for my weekend of hell last week. T.T What the hell giving me two cakes and playing a J-rock version happy birthday at the restaurant? What the helllllll you always surprise me and make me cry. Except not because I was too drunk to cry. Jesus. You people always managing to surprise me. ILU even if I hide behind the menu. LOL. <3 <3 <3 REEEENNNNNN WHY YOU GIVE ME A DRESS. OMGGGGG. EVERYONE TRIED TO TAKE IT OFF. D: D: (You're sneaaaakyyyyyyyy.) Mom thought I ordered something from the site and was about to scold me for lying. XD Sleep time. My cat's trying to fighgt with my comforter or his tail or something. And my dog ate cat food today. WTF. Alright I'm sleeping now.

( Just finished Fruits Basket...*lots of spoilers ahoy* )

meme is:

What are you favorite OP and EDs? and why?
Don't go past top 5, and say a few words why? :

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ok im done. 4am.. 1 hour til i wake up for work, but if i dont do it now, it would never get done.

お休みなさい。

Happy birthday, Jet Black and Nishikado Soujirou! One of you has a spaceship and a robot arm and the other is a rich spoiled playboy. Technically, one of you isn't even born yet. We might not have anything else in common other than today's date but that's common ground enough. And I'm still a total nerd about fictional characters having birthdays. XD

Hee, yvechan , your text woke me up. But I should have been up anyways. :B

Nooooooooo mininova.... ;.;

What are you favorite OP and EDs? and why?
Don't go past top 5, and say a few words why? :3


I thought I would do this..

One of my ultimate favs!


I just love how the video builds with the music. And, well I love Gene Starwind and his amazing adventures. The mixture of jazz and rock really is combined well with this song, what more can I say? ;D





When I first heard this song it really tugged on my heart strings. The song just completely fit with the flow of Honey and Clover. The song just makes my imagination run wild.



I always liked this song, even though I don't remember the show that much. How could I not love watching the male nakedness? Common now!



Besides the song being so surreal, the Last Exile opening is pure eye candy! It shows the main characters in their element, but doesn't give everything away. I love the low saturation mixed with steampunk themes. AWESOMENESS!!!




Another heart string pulling song. Wolf's Rain is one of the few series I like that actually effectd my life. So many good memories I shared with others and still do. For it is why I'm still called "Hige". Also, seeing the song performed live helps too. ^_^

What are you favorite OP and EDs? and why?
Don't go past top 5, and say a few words why? :3

I was unsure if it was songs or animation, so i choose animation+song.

In no specific order:
( MOAR! )

I can't help it! I finally caved in...

Meme yanked from lots of people:
What are you favorite OP and Eds? and why?
Don't go past top 5, and say a few words why? :3

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